Inevitable and huge changes in life.

I’ve only been working and stopped blogging for 2 months and Tumblr changed a lot. Life has changed a lot for me as well.

And so here I am trying to make a decent blog, after a very long break from blogging. I’m pretty sure you will not find this very interesting, but let me jut and rant some staff in here, just in case you are a friend of mine or just someone who somehow enjoys my blog. 

What have I been up to? Here it goes…

YES. I’m working now. I myself could not believe that I’m part of the working class people crowd, cursing taxes and is always impatient till the next payday.

And my job is no ordinary job. I have to instantly change my body clock to Eastern time. Yes, i work on nights and sleep on daylight. But NO, I don’t work on a BPO company, though most of time I feel like I do. It just so happen my company is a multi-national company based in the US.

It kind of suck, I know, but the pay is good. REALLY GOOD. So I suck it all up, get my shit together and go to work.

Another thing is, I’m living alone now, exactly 1 month today. If you know me in real life, I actually live with my brother. A for my parents, they live in Italy. And then, my brother moved to Canada with his wife.

I moved to a smaller place, 1 bedroom unit. And all I do in this place is to sleep and bathe and watch my favorite series. It’s ridiculous. I don’t even call this place a home. But this is better than having to stay anywhere else.

I do not have a social life now. I still get in touch with some friends, but I don’t get to see them anymore. All thanks to my very friendly work schedule. I don’t have Friday night outs and the energy to go out on Saturdays as well.

But I’m really thankful to a few friends who are really concerned and are looking after me, as they know how vulnerable I am right now. They are really the truest and the best friends I can ever have.

On the brighter side of having a job like mine, I have savings now. I feel like a grown up already just because I can handle my financial matters properly. I can pay for my own bills and I can even loan some cash to my mom who asked me to pay for something for her first.

And because I’m capable of buying now, I can shop without guilt or hesitations. But what’s interesting is, I shop for books. I spend more time at bookstores than department stores. I make it a point to buy a book every payday. What’s hilarious is that I do not always have the time to read, but I buy anyway. :)

There are ups and downsides in my life right now. Given this independence is not entirely a good thing. I get lonely, scared, and feel unloved and insignificant. But I’ve never been this strong, responsible, courageous and proud of myself. Things might get rough and tough at times, but deep inside me I know I’ll get through it. I may not be really happy with my current situation right now, but I’m already happy I was able to get through a day all by myself. It gives me a sense of fulfillment and a feeling that one day things will be smoother and easier. And when that happens, I’ll be even happier. :)